I got a new pet...

It's a betta
he's purple
his name is Stuart
he is Gay :)

(I'll upload a picture soon)

Life in the states so far....

I spent 4 days in a row in my bed. I just ate and bathed and went back to bed. I've been depressed. I'm not used to this life. Living with my parents again, depending on them for everything, nothing is like they promised. I feel played.  It sucks ass really bad. I was supposed to go to a club today, but can't, i don't have a ride. I have no close friends, Bg and Angelo have a busy life, Gaby too. People don't have much time for me. And i don't blame them, they have a life. I met this guy in phase one of work, i worked at a hotel for about 3 weeks or so, and that's really cute guy that works there asked me out, we went out a couple of timer, we "slept" together, but it wasn't good. He still texts me and we got together yesterday, but he hasn't tried to do anything, and i haven't heard from him today. I don't want to marry him, but a friend is something i need, otherwise i just spend my days inside this apartment and watch movies. I'm getting so fat!!! Did i mention i HATE my job!! I work at a cab company as an operator, i don't even know the street names from DR, and they expect me to learn Newark. I just need to meet more people, my friends is what got me through those years i lived alone.  I thought I'd be going into the city a lot, but, i get so lazy. The best days I've had so far, I've spent with Bg and Angelo. When I'm outside the house with friends, is the only time I'm not depressed. I wont even go out with my parents anymore. There's this other guy, from the hotel, well, from the Giants stadium. He works as traffic control in the Giants Stadium, and the hotel sends me there when there's game to pick up the clients, anyhow, he's cute, I've tried to give him my number, but i can't. i haven't seen him since i wanted to give him my number.  I don't know, i keep  thinking I'm going back to DR, but i don't really have anything to go back to. I need a plan, i need to start my recycling project again. I NEED TO DO SOMETHING !!!!

Hot bathroom encounter at nightclub. . .

It's been two weeks and a half since i got here. I'm not really used to it yet, but i guess i have to give it a lilttle more time. Meanwhile i went out with Chrsitina, she's my friend from DR, i used to work with her in PAges BBDO. She invited me to this club named 1OAK in NY. I hasitated, it was 10pm already and i was about to put my pjs on, she told me "maria! its one of the hippest club in NY and i friend of my friend is going to get us in and we are drinking for FREE, you can't say no to this!!! So i got changed and meet up with her :p . When we got there her friend, Ana, introduced us to the guy that got us in, Marko. We waited a couple of minutes outside for some other people he was waiting for. When we finally got in, it was nice. We sat down, he served us drinks. A while later we decided to wlake around and dance. So, we were dancing and chri saw this two guys (australians) that were cheking us out, she asked one of them to take a picture of us. That was the ice braker, they danced with us the entire night. We also saw this hot venezuelan actor guy, so he said, but he was an ass. So chri and ana hooked up with the australians, chri insisted that i hooked up with one of them, but he wasn't interested in me. Since we got there i had my eye on marko, he was cute and flirting with me. So drunk me danced with him alot. While we were dancing he said 3 things: 1) "me vas a dejar loco" 2)"como mantenez ese cuerpaso que tenes?" and 3) "acompañame abajo", which i did :P. you can imagine the rest....

Commando style in the us

Well, today was my 4th day in the us, i'm currently in Jersey City, NJ.  I spent my first night here puking, i ate too much meat on a BBQ. I think i might not eat meat for the rest of my life, or maybe a couple of weeks :P. I haven't seen Ronnie yet :(, he doesn't seem to happy to see me.  I'm bummed about that... Today i went bed shopping, my mom, she washed all my clothes, all of it, she said it all smelled like cat pee, so all my panties were wet. So basically i went commando to the streets today. It was kinda liberating :P. The best so far was watching True Blood with BG and Angelo, I cant wait to have our Glee marathon, they've never seen it :O. But don't worry i'm making sure they become Gleeks!!!!

My best friend

I talked to my best friend today! I kinda got exited about me moving to ny. I will get to see him and hang with him and angelo. I love them sou much. I updated him with all that's going on in my life now. I met him way back when i was 12 years old i think. I had a cast and ate lunch in the classroom, because the playground was downstairs and i couldn't be going up and down the stairs, he passed by one day and saw me eating there with kary. Since that day he ate lunch with me everyday <3. He is one of the funniest person alive. Seriously!!! Once, i choked in soda because i was laughing so much and so hard. The dumb ass being a hero and all, slapped me in the back so freaking hard that i spilled all the red soda over someone elses notebook. Hahahah, he hid the notebook in the back of the cabinet. They found that notebook by the end of the year :P. That's only one of the adventures we've had. And there's so much more to come.

Here he is <3:

I miss my cats

:(

New exercise sneakers

So today i bought new sneakers. Ammm, it was about time. I've been using the same sneakers to excersise since i was like 12. So you imagen they are kinda beaten up by now. I don't know how i wasn't embarrased using them in public. On facebook a saw a picture from when i was like 14 that i was in some school fieldtrip and i was wearing them, I know i had them way before that. 

Old sneakers:

New sneakers:

Pets

I love animals, there was a time were i had about 10 animals at once. I had 2 iguanas, yes, two green iguanas, about 4 Betta, 2 cacatuas (don't remember their name in english), 1 dog, a poodle, 2 cats (which you met already), my brother :p, and i think that was it. There names, the iguanas were coco and whiskey, the fishes i don't remember, the dog bella, cats chester and magoo and my brother norman. The fishes died. Bella got cancer, the iguanas were taken away from me and you know i abandoned my cats recently.

Here are some pictures:

 This is Whiskey

coco

chester

baby magoo

Jr. (i think)

spike

grumpy

all of them :P

No more cats

This is awful, you might think I'm the worst person ever! I grabbed my cats and put them in the car, drove far from my house and just dropped them on some street. I know it's horrible, that i should have taken them to a vet or pet shelter, but that doesn't work in this country. Look at the bright side, they are together :s... I just couldn't take care of them anymore, and I'm moving away, so i had to get rid of them, and nobody wanted them because they were adult cats. People only like kittens. They'll be ok, it looked like a rich neighborhood and it seemed low traffic, so they wont get hit by a car or something. I did feel bad, i do... I wish there was some other way to do this. But, what's done is done... I wish i could do that with people too. Is my heart dying? Am i becoming a heartless bitch? Naaahhh.... i don't think so..... I feel too much, that's my problem... But, yeah.. No more cats... 

This is the last picture i took of them, before i drove off... :s 

A new chapter

So, it turns out that i might be moving to the states after all. I'm not exited about it, but opportunities, they don't come too often in my life. So I'll just go with the flow. People are usually happy about it, but I'm bummed, i feel that i have unfinished business here in DR.

The first thing i can remember

It's kind of funny and at the same time creepy, but actually the first thing i can remember about my life starts as a zoom in to me and my brother standing at the door of my mothers room. Inside was my mom talking on the phone. Don't really remember what happened after that.

Was i fooled?

So this is what happened. I have this friend, Ronald, i love him so much. I used to have a crush on him when we re-meet. He used to go to my school in the 6 grade. Jejeje, he ruined my valentines and my birthday. He basically ruined my 6 grade. Who would have though that HE would brake my heart. As i mentioned, we were in school together for a year, he went back to NY and stayed there. Years passed and some dude invented facebook. Someone from school uploaded an old picture of the class back in 6 grade and started tagging people and that's how i got in touch with Ronnie again. We talked a lot, online mostly, he was in NY i was here in DR. I always go to NY once a year to visit my mom and family. So in 2008 i went and made plans with the famous Dr. Rolando, heheheh i used to call him that. we hit it off, as friends. later on he moved to DR, i picked him at the airport and i was his only friend here for a while. Time passed, and we went out a lot (as friends). the point is he kissed me one day out of the blew, from nowhere he just kissed me and made me promise i wouldn't change. I didn't, we fooled around for quite a bit. He moved back  to NY, he's dating someone else know. That doesn't bother me, what bothers me is that his best friend here, said that he never cared about me, and that all he cared about was sex, that he was with me just for fun. Seriously, i don't think so. I don't think he fell in love with me, but he did care about me, after all, we were friends first. And after he left, we still talk. He did this little things that you could tell he cared. I choose not to believe his friend. I will bring this up with Ronald, when i see him again.  Later on I'll tell you more about him. He was my little adventure... <3

I don't love my cats anymore

I have two of the most beautiful and loving cats, they were everything to me. I had huge fights with my brother and cleaning lady about them. I would do just about anything for them, ask anyone that knows me. But, know, i can't stand them, they cry all the time, they stink, they mess up the house, my house stinks because of them, i just don't want them anymore.  I've been thinking about it, it surprises me how i just don't love them anymore, just like that. I wish it could work like that on people. For example, you brake up with your boyfriend and bang, no sadness, no crying, no wishing you could be back with them. Why can i easily stop loving my cats who were always there for me. I mean my cats must be the only loyal cats ever, people say cats are unfaithful and that they'll turn their back on you if you don't feed them or they find better food or comfort somewhere else. Let me tell you, my cats, i wouldn't let them out, i was over protective with them, but know i leave the door and windows open so they can go, i even stopped feeding them, and those motherfuckers are still here. I get it, I'm all alone, i never gave you up cause you are the only thing left in my life that loves me and keep me company. But, i don't love you anymore, GO AWAY!!! I yell this at them, and they are still here. Guys, i fall in love with them immediately, and when they leave, it takes a whole era to get over them, even if it was my choice to end things.  Not only guys, people that have left me, friends, family, even work. There's a quote that says something like "boyfriends come and go, but friends will never leave you" that's bull crap, i have boyfriends that have stayed by my side longer than those so called "friends" but that's another topic for another post.

Here are some pictures of Chester, which I've had for 4 or 5 years. (white and yellow) and Magoo who is 1.5 years old (white and black)

I've always wanted to write about my life

I've always wanted to write about my life and publish a book about it. I think it's pretty interesting. But i don't really have a talent to write and probably everyone in the world thinks their life is book worthy. I bet they are, every person has its own little world full of drama, comedy and terror.

Well, welcome to mine. This will be my book.

The thing is, know that i started the project, i don't really know where to start.
Obviously, things won't be written in order. You'll read about my past, present and future randomly.